a close friend of mine & i had a piano jam sess the other day, & showed each other some recent songs we've written. one of her lines i cant get out of my head..
"this is my lot. this is what You've given me.
this is my life. i will not ask for another one."
wouldn't it be amazing if each one of us, the whole world, could look back at each circumstance in our past, and every hardship in our present, and think about our lives and say to ourselves, "i will not ask for another one." wouldn't that be powerful? what will it take for us to get there? i'm not sure what it'll take for me. some days i'm weaker than others, and i find myself blaming God for how some things have turned out. but in the end, this is it. this is my life. for some reason, whatever it may be, i've been given all this. and if my hope & trust is in the Lord, i won't ask for another way; i will not ask for different outcomes. and if there were the chance to trade it all in, not only would i have to give up the hard things but i'd have to forfeit the blessings too, the wonderful people in my life, and all the incredible oppertunities and circumstances that have come from each and every up & down. & i don't know if it'd be worth it. there's alot i wouldn't want to give up.... this is my lot. this is mine.
& in the end, maybe there's something beautiful
in not being in control...
